Its been 5 years..

5 years have passed.. altho our lives have all been changed dramatically.. my precious moments with you have been on a standstill since then. All the memories are still fresh in my mind.. all the images of you, the things you used to do or say.. i would just have to close my eyes and recall and the memories would come flowing back to me.

I miss the way you used to tease me, the times we laugh at each other and laugh together.. i miss those times when i needed someone.. and you just knew it whenever i was feeling down, and you just knew exactly what words to say and what i needed to hear in order to comfort me. We seemed to be able to read each others feelings and mind like second nature.

I brought Jerlynn to visit you yesterday. I hope you had a good glance at her.. You must have been watching over us so i had everything going well, right before delivery till now. She has been a good girl so far. Please also watch over ma and pa so they will be happy n healthy always. Ma hasnt been feeling too well these days.

I wonder where you are now and what you are doing.. and if you are ok. We all miss you so so much.

A new year is coming again.. and the cycle goes on and on each year. I'm hoping i can find something more meaningful to do so i can lead a more fulfiling life.

In the meantime, we will be strong n carry on. I love you n miss you just as much as before as always.

Loving n missin you,
Deb

Carry me on my wedding

Hello bro,
times flies and next week means another year have gone.

I was reading a forum about a girl who don't care about the size of her proposal ring.
Her only request is that he carries her on their wedding day.
I immediately thought of you and the Newpaper article.
"He was training his arms, so he can carry me on the wedding day."
Not saying she is heavy but the wedding grown can get pretty heavy especially with all the bling bling and crystals.
Funny just realise how boastful you are of your biceps, do you even need to train to carry her?

Was talking to your sis the other day and talked about grandchilds.
Hope she get married soon and give your parents a grandchild to play and be occupied with.

Ya I still remembered last year I promised to bring flowers next week.

Debbie's son is cute. Her daughter is sleeping so didn't get to look at her.
But then as a guy, think all babies below 3 months look the same.
Will update you when she gets older.

Bye.

YY

missing you so much..

hi baby,

Time may pass us by.. But nothing will ever stop me from missing you. I'm facing a lot of unanswered questions in my mind right now.. And I wish that you were still here to answer them for me.. Like you have always.

I miss you so much..

I have been busy and I bet you have been too coz' I haven't been dreaming of you lately.

You will always be in my mind, heart and soul.. And there will always be a special place in my heart for u.

Love you loads and loads..
Deb

I miss you

Hi baby, How have you been? Just attended another of our friend's wedding, and saw many familiar faces, photos, places. Things have changed since you have been away. Gatherings have been far and few, but once us friends come together again.. All things just feel so familiar again. All those tough trainings, lectures, classes and training camps that we have experienced together just draw us back together again. I wished you were here tonight. Somehow events like tonight cant stop me from thinking about you again. Memories of you start again from day 1 of our training together in NYJC.. To the time we got together.. Till you went into army, then uni and into the workforce. All my memories just kept coming back to me. I love my family, i love alot of things that are happening in my life right now, but i love you too and i missed our past. Altho it has been a while since we parted our separate ways.. I still think about you, and you are still a part of my everyday life. I wish you were here to comfort me, coz' you would have known exactly how to do it. I wonder where exactly are your whereabouts now.. And i wish i could see you again someday. Forever missing you. Love u, Deb

Hi dar..

Times flies.. It's another new year again.

A friend spoke to me about an ordeal he went through many years ago, quite similar to mine.. And suddenly i realised how much i missed you. It seems.. With the hectic life i'm going through now, i seem to have forgotten how it feels like to have you around and to miss you. Talking with this friend of mine brought me back to years ago when we were together doing things, rowing, going on outings, trips, having birthday celerations together. Somehow, after you left us.. All these memories remain ever so vivid and recent. They seemed to have had a standstill in time.

I looked through our photos.. Recently i seem to have an ultimately bad memory. I can't even recall what i had for lunch or what i did the day before.. But when i looked through our photos.. My mind just maps up all the jigsaw pieces perfectly. I believe those memories are locked deep at the back of my mind.. Maybe, it's only after the incident that my mind refuses to remember.. Refuses to recall and attempts to block out all negativity.. That is why i seem to be suffering from "memory loss" all the time. I lose track of time, date, events.. It doesn't seem to matter much anymore, without you in it.. After all, certain dates are still extremely painful to me to go through..

Everyone is well at home, and we all still miss you dearly. Deep in our hearts, you will always hold a special place and presence whenever we are all gathered together for a dinner.

Thank you for being in my life and for making all the differences in it. I love you so so much.

P.S I miss sending you emails while at work, so if you do have one, give me a sign and tell me what it is so i can flood your email. Missing you, still.

Love,

Me