Thursday 14 November 2013

6th years later...

Time seem to fly at top speed when someone is gone.. its the 6th years since u have left us and i recently developed a strong dislike going to the temple where you are resting.. cos its a cruel reminder that i can never talk, see or hear you ever again..

I'm getting married next year and i really hope you will be there.. its a great pity that you wont personally get to know your brother-in-law, the man your little sister is going to spend the rest of her life with.. well i guess this is life. your passing is a great reminder to me that i should never ever waste time doing anything that will not give me any meaning in life.

I'm still trying hard to be a better person and hope you will give me the strength and courage to step out of my comfort zone and achieve what i am suppose to achieve in life.
please continue to bless our parents with great health and happiness (whatever that's left) and of cos, our fatty brother and great sis in law.. bless them with a healthy and smart kid.

Not forgetting Debbie and her family.. Jayden and Jerlynn are really beautiful kids i've ever seen.. Please bless her family with great health and constant happiness.

Hope you are doing well up there with all the other angels.. miss you..

Wednesday 13 November 2013

Hello Bro,
Made my visit today.

Started to race again. Second fastest timing in heats, but got fourth in finals.
The team is going to start preparing for the next race and Mat mentioned about the Champion team again.
He also mentioned that the teams are quiet unlike last time.
Guess everyone missed you kpkb-ing on the boat.

Had put on weight and has started training again to lose the bulge. Now I understand the pain of carrying 1 pack of rice and jog around.

One day after jogging and just walking around the track to cool down, I recalled the days when you got teased when you put on weight and decided to go jogging.

Frankly, exercising alone is quite lonely and boring.
Missed the days where we train, exercise, tease and compete with each other.

From,
YY

6 years on..

Hi baby,

How have you been? 6 years on and it still feels as though I'm stuck 6 years back.. Well, I guess the world just stops moving when you lose your loved ones? I miss you loads and though I'm much better than 6 years ago when I used to cry buckets of tears.. I admit today is still always the hardest to get by every single year.

I will always turn to your Fb or your blogspot as an avenue to let out my "frustrations".. Because this is my only channel left for me to" speak" to you..

The guys from NTU alumni raced last weekend and they were really nice to ask me over.. I feel bad coz I find it really tough even up till now to attend any race without you rowing in it.. And even more worse to know that i would never see you rowing in another.. After all, I have seen you grow up rowing in canoeing and paddling in dragon boat races for almost ten years.. It's like a super long and endearing journey that we had gone through together..

But I actually miss that kind of familiarity..  The rowing scene, the cheering, the teamwork, the "bai dong", the "gan cheong"  feeling.. Sometimes I feel like I'm a changed person after you left.. I no longer do sports now.. Or rather I dun have the time for a half an hour jog even. . And even Courage has left to become another angel. I bet she must have decided that you would be able to spend more time running with her than I possibly could. =)

I miss talking to you so much.. I'm sure many of your friends too.. I hope you are still watching over us while carrying on with your chores above..

Missing you dearly... And loving you wholeheartedly.. Always.
Deb