Looking back in time..

Looking at the pictures on my table,
I wish I was able
To return to the past,
Fast
To go back in time,
And then decline
Leaving you.

I,
Shouldn’t have flown
Away from you
If I had known
That was the last I would have of you.
The last hugs, the last meal, the last kiss goodbye.
If I had known,
I wouldn’t fly far, far away from you.

There were so many plans, so many promises…
We have made for each other.
Wedding was our first, holidays trips for our honeymoon, then children
Just to name a few
It seemed like everything would fall in place as made.

Then,
Before anything was said,
We got a phone call that night,
Telling us about your fate…
Millions of thoughts run through my mind,
Everything had seemed fine.
When I flew away,
Flew away the last time, from you.

Bringing you home this time,
Wasn’t as happy as we had thought it should be.
We saw many familiar faces at the Airport,
All eyes were filled with tears,
Of sadness and shock,
Of having lost…
You.

The one person we had all admired,
In every aspect we could think of,
Studies, Career, Sports,
Relationships with family and friends…
You were so loved.

Like a dove,
You left us as peaceful as you came
Into this world.
Bringing so much joy and love,
To the people in this small part of the world,
Teaching us precious little lessons of life…

Like an angel,
You came and mingled,
Making an impact as you juggled,
All the different things in your life that mattered.
Things just couldn’t have been better.

But I am glad to have had a chance,
In this lifetime
To prance,
Upon an angel like you,
Learning from you life’s first hand’s experiences.
Thank you.

I wrote this at work one day while thinking of you..

Yesterday was the 8th month since you left us..
Sometimes i still wake up in the mornings wondering if this is all just a bad dream, and i would see you sitting at the corner of my bed as i awake from my sleep.
Or receive a phonecall from you telling us you are okay..

I miss you so much..
Deb