I'm just thinking about you..

Can't get to sleep tonight.. Was looking through some of our old photos and reliving the past memories.. Really miss horsing around with you like we are little kids.. Miss those teases we had towards each other.. Miss those little notes, love letters and emails that used to spring up in my books, on my table or inbox.. Miss your ever so proud and confident self. Miss your witty jokes and your culinary skills.. Miss everything about you. It is true that a person in love always looks the best.

You made me everything that i was.

I could only wish I had more time with you.. But i know in my heart our time together has long been over, at least physically. I do hope to see you in my dreams when i finally get to sleep tonight..

I love you.
Deb

Happy birthday baby

Hi dear,

Its your birthday today.. Ill always miss those times when we bring each other out for romantic dinners or those times when we celebrate our birthdays just eating our favourite stingray at chomp chomp. Such were the simple, yet pleasant joys in our lives. I also remember that we once planned a birthday surprise for you back in hostel.. Where each one of your friends hid in your hostel room while TS and you went to cook noodles for supper. All these moments are etched deep in my memory and probably each and every one else's minds too..

I hope the angels are celebrating your birthday in this similar fashion too, maybe even bigger!

Seasons Greetings

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, Happy Chinese New Year, Happy V-Day & Anniversary and Happy Birthday in advance..

I miss hearing your voice, I miss your touch, your laughter and your teases. Most importantly, I miss talking to you..

I miss everything about you and I miss you.

I wish I could see you more often in my dreams, yet I never fail to wake up without tears in my eyes when I do.. But I would see want to see you in my dreams each time, coz I know that that is the only other way I can see you and talk to you again.

Loving you like always and missing you more than ever.

Deb

Its been 5 years..

5 years have passed.. altho our lives have all been changed dramatically.. my precious moments with you have been on a standstill since then. All the memories are still fresh in my mind.. all the images of you, the things you used to do or say.. i would just have to close my eyes and recall and the memories would come flowing back to me.

I miss the way you used to tease me, the times we laugh at each other and laugh together.. i miss those times when i needed someone.. and you just knew it whenever i was feeling down, and you just knew exactly what words to say and what i needed to hear in order to comfort me. We seemed to be able to read each others feelings and mind like second nature.

I brought Jerlynn to visit you yesterday. I hope you had a good glance at her.. You must have been watching over us so i had everything going well, right before delivery till now. She has been a good girl so far. Please also watch over ma and pa so they will be happy n healthy always. Ma hasnt been feeling too well these days.

I wonder where you are now and what you are doing.. and if you are ok. We all miss you so so much.

A new year is coming again.. and the cycle goes on and on each year. I'm hoping i can find something more meaningful to do so i can lead a more fulfiling life.

In the meantime, we will be strong n carry on. I love you n miss you just as much as before as always.

Loving n missin you,
Deb

Carry me on my wedding

Hello bro,
times flies and next week means another year have gone.

I was reading a forum about a girl who don't care about the size of her proposal ring.
Her only request is that he carries her on their wedding day.
I immediately thought of you and the Newpaper article.
"He was training his arms, so he can carry me on the wedding day."
Not saying she is heavy but the wedding grown can get pretty heavy especially with all the bling bling and crystals.
Funny just realise how boastful you are of your biceps, do you even need to train to carry her?

Was talking to your sis the other day and talked about grandchilds.
Hope she get married soon and give your parents a grandchild to play and be occupied with.

Ya I still remembered last year I promised to bring flowers next week.

Debbie's son is cute. Her daughter is sleeping so didn't get to look at her.
But then as a guy, think all babies below 3 months look the same.
Will update you when she gets older.

Bye.

YY

missing you so much..

hi baby,

Time may pass us by.. But nothing will ever stop me from missing you. I'm facing a lot of unanswered questions in my mind right now.. And I wish that you were still here to answer them for me.. Like you have always.

I miss you so much..

I have been busy and I bet you have been too coz' I haven't been dreaming of you lately.

You will always be in my mind, heart and soul.. And there will always be a special place in my heart for u.

Love you loads and loads..
Deb

I miss you

Hi baby, How have you been? Just attended another of our friend's wedding, and saw many familiar faces, photos, places. Things have changed since you have been away. Gatherings have been far and few, but once us friends come together again.. All things just feel so familiar again. All those tough trainings, lectures, classes and training camps that we have experienced together just draw us back together again. I wished you were here tonight. Somehow events like tonight cant stop me from thinking about you again. Memories of you start again from day 1 of our training together in NYJC.. To the time we got together.. Till you went into army, then uni and into the workforce. All my memories just kept coming back to me. I love my family, i love alot of things that are happening in my life right now, but i love you too and i missed our past. Altho it has been a while since we parted our separate ways.. I still think about you, and you are still a part of my everyday life. I wish you were here to comfort me, coz' you would have known exactly how to do it. I wonder where exactly are your whereabouts now.. And i wish i could see you again someday. Forever missing you. Love u, Deb

Hi dar..

Times flies.. It's another new year again.

A friend spoke to me about an ordeal he went through many years ago, quite similar to mine.. And suddenly i realised how much i missed you. It seems.. With the hectic life i'm going through now, i seem to have forgotten how it feels like to have you around and to miss you. Talking with this friend of mine brought me back to years ago when we were together doing things, rowing, going on outings, trips, having birthday celerations together. Somehow, after you left us.. All these memories remain ever so vivid and recent. They seemed to have had a standstill in time.

I looked through our photos.. Recently i seem to have an ultimately bad memory. I can't even recall what i had for lunch or what i did the day before.. But when i looked through our photos.. My mind just maps up all the jigsaw pieces perfectly. I believe those memories are locked deep at the back of my mind.. Maybe, it's only after the incident that my mind refuses to remember.. Refuses to recall and attempts to block out all negativity.. That is why i seem to be suffering from "memory loss" all the time. I lose track of time, date, events.. It doesn't seem to matter much anymore, without you in it.. After all, certain dates are still extremely painful to me to go through..

Everyone is well at home, and we all still miss you dearly. Deep in our hearts, you will always hold a special place and presence whenever we are all gathered together for a dinner.

Thank you for being in my life and for making all the differences in it. I love you so so much.

P.S I miss sending you emails while at work, so if you do have one, give me a sign and tell me what it is so i can flood your email. Missing you, still.

Love,

Me

Just like yesterday

Hello,
Went to visit your altar.
It's being four year but it still feels like yesterday, where you are still joking with me on msn.
Noticed that the altars around you al have flowers although the flowers are supposed to be put in the vases. Will remind myself to flowers next year.

Always "shu lang mai shu seh"

YY

Reminded me of you..

王力宏 - 你不知道的事

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你
你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事
蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你
你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事
我飞行 但你坠落之际
你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
多的是 你不知道的事

Missing you,

Deb

Weddings..

Weddings never fail to remind me of you..
I have four to attend this month, and two of them are your good buddy friends getting hitched. I know you would have been there to "tekan" your friends to the max..but yet, at the same time given them your utmost blessings. I have and will do that on your behalf.. The blessings, I mean.

Every time I attend a wedding, I'll think about you. I'll always wonder what photos we would have chosen to put in our montage, coz we would have plenty.. Given the many years that we have spent together..I'll always wonder what songs we would play over the speakers.. Coz we would have had a few that we used to sing to each other.
I'll always wonder what it would feel like to hold your hand and walk down the aisle with you, and how good and happy we would look together.
I'll always wonder what funny acts we would have done on stage, after all, we had planned to do a dance together on stage.
I'll always wonder how your friends would think of ways to get back at you both on stage and off stage.. After all, you have always been the cheeky one, and making fun of everybody else.

But all of these.. I could only wonder.. Coz' I would never know.

It's almost four years now.. But still, it doesn't feel like it was that long ago.

I miss you and love you dearly..
Deb

How have you been?

How are u? Work has been a roller coaster ride... wished u are still around for me to rant to..







Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say.
Now it's too late to hold you. '
Cause you've flown away, so far away.

Never, Had I imagined, yeah, living without your smile.
Feelin' and knowing you hear me.
It keeps me alive. Alive!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

xue

Wish I did....

Wished I got to know you better.....

Please watched over Debbie, Give her comfort so that she can live happily today, tomorrow and forever.

BH

Bruno Mars - Count On Me

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see
I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh

If you toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Everyday I will remind you

Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh, yeah, yeah

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go, never say goodbye

You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh

You can count on me 'cause I can count on you

Heard of this song over the radio the other day and thought of you.
Thanks for being my friend.

YY

You are still missed greatly

Just letting you know that Deb and your sis still misses you a lot.
They are keeping the memories alive, never letting you go, as if you have never left.

XL have changed her job, doing something she likes although she grumbles that t's a painful learning process.
She is trying to follow you as her role model, trying the best she can.
Deb's son is growing up fine.


Please look after them from above.
YY

I'd rather be a could-be if I cannot be an are; because a could-be is a maybe who is reaching for a star. I'd rather be a has-been than a might-have-been, by far; for a might have-been has never been, but a has was once an are.

i still come by and think of you, my captain!

yeap, i still drop by and have a look, to find my aspirations from my captain, my friend. cheers!

BC

happy belated Birthday

Yo Eujin,

Happy belated birthday!!!

- limpeh

V day 2011

Hi dear,

Happy vday and happy anniversary.
It would have been 13 years since we got together and 4 years since we got engaged. Time flies...

I miss you and love you so much.

Deb

Best man

One of our best friend getting married today.
Really hope you are still around to join in the fun.

YY

Still..

I still think of you every now and then. No matter how my life and future changes, the past that I had together with you is always deeply etched in my mind..

I know how fortunate I was to have made your acquaintance and enjoyed many years together with you as a couple during your brief stay here on earth.

You are forever remembered baby.

I love you.
Deb

You are remembered...

Did a search for HQ Armceg, and this blog came up. Reminded of what had happened three years back... I am both sorry and shock to hear about what happened then, and till today, given the unintentional reminder, i realized... i'm still in shock of what had happened. Memories of me training your batch of BPCC seems so recent...

Royce

Has been three years..

You are always in our hearts.
Hope you're doing well.
So long, friend..

Blessing

Please give her your blessing from above.

Memories still run deep..

As we near the date of your third year anniversary..
I can't help but recall all those past memories of you..
I remember those times in JC where you made bread with a spread of nutella, and would package it as my morning breakfast..
I remember those times during training..where you will always be there to encourage me to keep going on when trainings were sometimes too hard to bear..
I remember how you give me morning calls to make sure i wake up for school or for work..and how once you cycled from your hostel to mine in the wee hours of the morn just to knock on my door to make sure i was up..
And of course... many many more other little things and memories you did for me and gave me that i still hold close to my heart.. that when i re-think them again.. they still do tug at my heart strings..

i miss you..still.
Love you lots..

Debbie

Blessing

I can't be certain whether you heard but I believe you would have known as you would be up there looking down at us all the time.

Knowing you, your feelings will be mixed.

Sad but also happy.

But you will suck it up like a man, hid the saddness and give your blessing as you truly wants her to be happy.


Met your sis. Will give her any necessary word of advice or help if needed.


Benny getting married in Jan.

If you are around, you will be the best man.


May you shower your blessings on all of them from above.

Regards,
YY

If I had one wish.. I would want to be able to speak to you again.

Happy Birthday

Hi,
Happy Birthday.
Sorry its a workday today.
Will visit tomorrow.

YY

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday To You, Eu Jin.

A tribute that is long overdue

There are many times, in the past 2 years, when i want to enter something in this blog dedicated to this great person that i have the privilege to know. Perhaps, it's the fact that i don't know much of Eujin and my then aloofness in our university days that impede our friendship. However, i finally found the courage to enter something in this blog as Christmas draws near. Throughout the 2 years of following this blog, i realized how much Eujin had been an inspiration to many and still have, myself including. If there is anyone that embodies the values of humility,discipline, friendship, love and courage i would say that Eujin is the one such fine example. Eujin has the amazing ability to seemingly bring the best out of everyone around him with his sheer determination and brillance. The world is definitely a lesser place without him. Still i wouldn't mourn his loss, for his life is about courage, and i choose to be brave and celebrate his life, the life of Ooi Eujin. Here's a snip of the lyrics of the movie theme song i heard from the movie "Ladder 49". Hope this will be a message of courage to Debbie and Eujin's loved ones.

Shine your light down on me
Lift me up so i can see
Shine your light when you're gone
Give me the strength
To carry on, carry on

Just a little correction..

Hi dear,

I didnt clock under 5 hours, just under 6.. but somehow I knew I wasn't really running alone this year when I broke the 39km mark. At that point, I felt like you were suddenly beside me pushing me to go on. I still had a lot of strength left when I completed this year's marathon. Probably it's the strength given to me by my own angel.

Still very dearly missed by all at home.

Loving you always,
Debbie

A Good News to Share With You, Eu Jin

Hello Eu Jin,

Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2009 was held on 6 Dec, Sunday.
Debbie has made it in Full Marathon.
She clocked her personal best timing within 5hrs.
I know you will be proud of her just like how I feel now.

year 2009

Time has not slow down since the day you left us, and everything else still has to go on. i'm reaching the last year of my uni life, and i cant help but keep recalling that u said u will be there for my convocation.

Recently i'm not sure why but i left ur presence more than ever. this gave me a mixture of feelings of happiness and guiltiness. i'm guilty because of my mediocre results and the only thing i feel that u might be proud of is that i got my license within 3 months.

Nonetheless, continue to keep the family safe and sound. =)

miss you

xue

A question that came too late.....

Last week I ran into Lee Lim, a pri school friend whom I haven seen for a long time.
We had lunch on Fri and I asked him,

"Do you still remember Eu jin? I saw him a few years at the train but I didn't call him because he look very different now, I cannot confirm if it is him..."

And from there I learnt about what happened and the sadness and shock is just indescribable..
I am sorry to know about this after so long as I was oversea then till last year and more guilty not having to go up and talk to him when I had the chance...

I recently published my first comic book, and he has always been encouraging and supporting me last time, believing I will be a great artist. And I know he will be there to support me too now.

I will not grief for your loss, but to live to the fullest, juz like he will always do :)

Alan, Jia-Ping

Bro,

I just wanna say that though we met briefly during NS, that doesn't mean you aren't in my heart. Life can be cruel, taking away the nicest of people, but i think it is testimony to the wonderful person you are, that till today, a lot of people still miss and think about you. I think if there is anything all of us can learn, and that is to treasure our loved ones, and never taking them for granted. Honour but i will, with you as my inspiration, work towards being a better person.

Mind full of thoughts.. of You.

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon-dust
In your hair of black
And starlight in your eyes of brown

Looking back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed

It was songs of love that
I would sing to you then
And I’d memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me

As they melt the years away
All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry
Just like before

It seems like yesterday once more.

Love,
Deb

In my dreams

When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I’ll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I’ll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I’ll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I’ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you’ll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I’ll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I’ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you’ll be

'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always

In my dreams
I’ll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I’ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you’ll be

Have so much to tell you, and really wish I could talk to you again.

Love,
Deb

A friend in need....

Yo Eujin,

Its such an irony.... here I am

Thoughts of you

Thoughts of you

hey bro...

we still misses you so much every single day.. during my exams, i know u were there.. though the results are not out yet, i reckon i'll do ok this sem.. and i have finally started my driving lessons.. its a struggle for me to overcome the fear but i'll be brave and do it.. i know u would have wanted me to do this..=)

love always
xue

Angel

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh a beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

Yo bro,
hear this song over the radio and thought of you.
Hope up there is a better place than down here.

YY